What I think v/s what I say

My mind: oh my God, I am really in trouble. What am I going to do about my job, about my studies, about my life?

Me: oh! I am fine.

My mind: the world is so complex, if only I could understand its elements. That would be so nice. Has God really lived a life of human? Who was the first human being in the planet? How come no one else has any doubts about anything and I keep wondering stupid questions about earth and planet and stuff?

Me: oh no! It’s okay! Everything is simple; I know Adam and eve were the first humans on planet.

My mind (when reading a book): oh my! This character is so intense. She is always confused and falls in love with almost every other person. She is so strong that her words might just fashion holes in your heart. I am in love with this character; I wish I could be just like her. I could do anything to be like her. If only I would have the patience like this woman, oh well but I don’t. So is it possible that I remain single all my life unlike her? Oh no! That can’t be I will do all my best to be the best like her. I will be strong and adamant, confident and, and whatever she is, but I will not fail. Sure I will not.

Me: oh this character is so beautiful and strong, I wish I could be like her.

Well, I think you get what I am trying to say. Can any of you relate to this? Please tell me. Or is it only me that do things like these? I wish I could dredge up something more from my memory but I can’t. This is the most that I could remember and recall. But is it too difficult to remember everything? I mean every time I am in a fight I would ponder about saying things like this. !$#%$^Y^**&(^&^#$# but would end up saying something like <”?>. oh if only I could do something better.

Sometimes I would think of writing about something and in my mind there would be 10 thousand thoughts and judgments but what I’d end up writing would be a small and rudimentary article on the topic.

Oh dear, help me.

PS: I think this is some small joke played on us 😉

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Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

35 thoughts on “What I think v/s what I say

      1. Do you want to be trouble? Lol. 😉
        Some “trouble” can be of the good/fun type and can lead to some positive endings while others can lead to not so positive endings. You are not troubling. 🙂 at least not in a negative way. Lol.

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