It was not always like this. I was not always like this. Something has happened that has made me realize that I have changed over the years and I am stunned how could it possibly have happened?
I used to be the person who would comply to you with so much ease, you’d wonder that how can she be so easy going? I was the person who would be the sweet, docile person who was good to talk to. You could see my yearbook and would find few words consistently on all the pages written by all my friends, “Sweet, cute, polite, respectful, friendly”
And today, I am truly horrified at myself. I am nothing of the words that my old friends use to describe me with. I am not friendly anymore. I seem to have attitude issues even though I call it self-respect. I don’t comply with everyone these days. I will just not listen to anyone if he is wrong or right saying that this is my life and why should he interfere in it. Previously I would listen to him and might as well agree with but these days it’s suddenly “my life.” I am not proud of myself and am justly perplexed at my behavior.
Not everything is debauched about this. Sometimes things are wonderful because I am able to take my own stand. But where did the old ‘She’ go? And this new ‘She’; is it for good or for bad?