“Oh, I am all good.”

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It breaks my heart every time I see him and I still have no idea what to do about it. I thought he completely forgot me, I did not even existed for him but then he just comes in front of me and is gushing all his charm on me and I the instant fool, am all over his flaws.

‘Oh I am all good’ I say, but inside, my heart is piercing, shattering into pieces.

What do I do?

Run away?

But my heart never wants to.

So I stay and talk despite all the impossibilities.

“I am all good, how are you?” I really want to know. I want to know how has he been? How has life treated him? How is his work? Is everything okay at home? Above all, I want to know why, just why it took him so long to acknowledge my presence? I had been around for quite a time now but it didn’t seem to matter to him. I had a lot many questions but I kept shut, we smiled and talked about general stuff and after a while I say good bye. I knew, this time I had to say it first, I didn’t want to be left back again. I can tell from his ways that he has to go now, and I have to accept it.

“Good bye.” His smile went deeper into my heart.

It was easy for him to come and go and return after even declining my existence for so long.

But it wasn’t for me, just wasn’t for me.

 

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

71 thoughts on ““Oh, I am all good.””

  5. I’m sure just talking with him took courage and it appears you handled yourself in a proud and dignified manner. Sometimes it’s just that someone better is meant for us so one gets removed and later you learn it was for so much more! I know that’s not much comfort now but it always seems to work out that way 🙂 so cheers to a 1 million times better and one who will see who we all see 🙂

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  7. It takes great strength to love someone so deep that it wont matter whether the person loves you or not. Hold on to the sentiments, write it down somewhere, it will give you strength and happiness on a lonely day.

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    1. Hello there,
      Thank you so much for peeking into this small blog of mine.
      I have the habit of keeping journals and whenever I feel that there is something I cannot speak about I go and write it there and as you said, it really does give me the strength at difficult times.
      Thanks a lot dear.
      Have a great day ahead.
      Much love,

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  8. Don’t worry moushmi..as I said in previous posts many times..you have locked him in your heart and you are not allowing him to go..but remember when don’t let him go. YOU are not welcoming new ONE who may better suit you in all levels..world and nature and universe is fair.when you want something badly and you didn’t get it remember that it doesn’t suit you..who knows what happens afterward if he is with you..and who knows there may be another cupid who adores you more than him..don’t worry always..please moushmi

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      10. Hmmm..noooooo..yaar…I am from mechanical engineering…I don’t have close friends in girls whom I can share everything with or whom I can tease with or whom I can play….

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      12. Yeah..we are like proud singles..we used to see other couples..we either gets jealous if not handsome guy gets pretty girl or play jokes or abuse them..or we used to stare other girls

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      22. Absolutely…you are 102 percent right .why would I stop…when a girl who is talking sweetly and when she is smiling and laughing for your words..who would stop..that’s good feeling for boy

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      30. This is second time I am listening from you…Apart from flirting I also know something,it’s called ……ok..I don’t….Actually it’s not flirting..I didn’t even see but I tried to see you manytimes😝😝😝😝😝

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      38. I don’t know.after speaking those kind of words..some girls may feel that I am doing over action..and try to avoid..when I ask why they get hurt.actually I only flirt with unknown and strangers..when pretty girls are near me I can’t even talk to them I just and sit and stare ..I just do with you because..if you want to beat me,you can’t😂😂

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      40. Work..I have only one work now ..flirting with angels in dreams..how will dreams come?? Soo I too have to sleep…and please don’t come to my dreams..enough of flirting class for today..whenever I use some lines on you..in a few minutes you will turn like a principal or headmistress and give class to me..and then I feel like a student..what’s this 😭

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      42. What way..giving lecture..oh my god..I am safe if I am near you..you would have made me kneel down and beat me with stick and gave me homework to write ” I don’t flirt with women” 100 times

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