At 3 AM, I was still awake. I was kept awake, and it seemed sleep had no intention of befriending me that night. It was weird, I seldom have such sleepless nights and yet there I was staring at the ceiling of my room. I tried everything from reading to blinking my eyes continuously to try and get some sleep but the result being, still the overcrowded mind.
Twisting and turning to all the possible sleeping positions, I lost hope and sat upright. What was I to do? I had tired myself with everything and I really wanted to sleep. Sighing, I lied down again, and squished the extra pillow to my face.
After a while, the fan started to make some noise. Honestly, after 3 AM in the morning even my own footsteps would have scared me. I got up and switched off the fan. The weather was cool outside so I thought I could do without it. I was drifting off to sleep, I finally was but something kicked in to my mind, and just like that any possible chance of sleep went away.
I started to feel so warm suddenly I had to get up and switch on the air conditioner. I wouldn’t risk the fan again. But even the sound of the compressor was disturbing me now. I still left it on with a few hours timer, hoping with the cool air I would go off to sleep.
The last I saw the time was 4:30 and then suddenly I woke up with a start at 5:15. I was starting to feel cold. I put off the AC and then went off to sleep but the dear sleep de-friended me again just in few minutes time. At 5:40, I was wide awake again. I was feeling hot!
I risked the fan, and with a screech it went about giving me cool air, but I knew nothing could get me back to sleep, it was a lost hope. I opened the windows and the balcony door of my room, looking at the depressing sky, the sun was just about to come out but the clouds hided him well. The weather was cool outside, even drizzling a little bit, so I couldn’t even go out for a morning walk. And yet I felt warm and the need of fresh air. Fresh air? I was just breathing that, what else did I want? Silently, I returned to my room and slumped down on the bean bag.
To avoid boredom anymore, I put on some slow music on my phone. I had long lost hope for any proper sleep that night. I sat there, looking outside at the beautiful rain, slowly spreading across the morning making it duller and gloomy outside, hiding the faintest signs of sun.
At 6, I made myself a cup of coffee and sat there looking outside, rain water tricking down the tree leaves, falling onto the ground, creating a small puddle.
Beautifully described the pain of sleepless nights.
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Thank you so much for you kind words. I appreciate your reading it.
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Wow…it is really beautifully put…being a nightcrawler…i imagine all this and it ia true…word to word…except the creaking fan.
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Yes, I know the creaking fan was a rare exception to me too. But thank you so much for reading it and also letting me know that I am not the only one with such troubles.
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No you are not…i guess someway or other… everyone experiences this….some more than others….you are most welcome.
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Thank you 🙂
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“Insomnia is a vertiginous lucidity that can convert paradise itself into a place of torture.”
Emil Cioran
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Very well said this is. Thank for bringing it into light.
And I couldn’t have agreed anymore.
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That’s why you have to chat withe me till night..soo when I chat useless flirting lines..you will get sleep
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That’s the problem. I don’t like sleeping with my phone near by, I need some time away from the social media too. And seriously, I’d be happy to be sleepless rather than listening to your useless flirty-bollywood-copied lines.
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Don’t insult my creativity..patent rights are with me..they have to pay me..but I have some tips..before going to sleep..drink glass of milk..then read a book ..if you still didn’t get a sleep…go to you tube..see some comedy videos..if still didn’t worked..well..I don’t know
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Well, I almost tried everything.
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Moushuuuu
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It is Moushmi!!!
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I know ..but I like calling all kind of names..because as I said several times..moushmi is what everyone calls you..moushu is different..ita like friendly name
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I am signing off.
Have a lovely day.
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Oh my god..because of me?? I am sorry…
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Oh God, stop being a drama queen. Not because of you.
I am going, just….
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Drama queen??? This is little over..anyways..have a lovely evening
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Hahahaha Now you know what is getting a little over?
You too have a lovely evening. 🙂
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Never fight those rare insomniac nights! Make peace, you wouldn’t want them waging regular nightly battles.😋
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Thank you so much dear, I completely agree, I wouldn’t want them come again and again.
But as of now, I am just trying to get rid of them, or at least give me a night off!
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Urrr….I suffer from insomnia a lot so I can sure empathize with you! I hate having to wake up and go to work with only 1-3 hours of sleep urr! Hope you get better sleep tonight!! Reading books will sometimes help me and spraying lavender or burning a lavender candle – worth trying 🙂
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Thank you so much Elizabeth. I do realise this is so much painful.
I, for a matter, am a dead sleeper, and can go to sleep in like five minutes time if I am tired, but some night., the exceptional ones I become restless, overthink which leads to such sleepless nights. I hate those. And this was one such, rather it has been now three consecutive nights.
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Try some camomile tea and lavender scent tonight before bed-that does help me😊
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Sure, I will.
May be this might help,
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Each moment of staying awake at night when sleep totally ditches you, is so agonizing. I could feel your agony through your words Moushmi. Well written!
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Thank you so very much Radhika.
I am glad my words could move someone’s feelings.
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Wow … Insomnia is something, isn’t it? Just yesterday I read a short story by Murakami called “Sleep”. It’s a New Yorker short so you can just google it and read online. I think you’ll really like it!
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I am going to download it right after I reply to your comment.
I don’t usually have these problems, but sometimes my mind seems to be doing over time.
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Well described.Pain of person suffering from Insomnia .Is it true or just a thought.??
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I do not suffer from insomnia. I am a dead sleeper in fact, but sometimes I do suffer sleepless nights, when I am overthinking, or something is bothering me too much.
Just one of those nights leading up to a post..
Thanks a lot for stopping by and sparing some time here.
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Ohh,its a common problem and it happens with everyone.Nicely penned😆
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Thank you so very much dear.
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😍😍My pleasure
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By the way I am trying to comment on your posts, but I guess they are being sent to spam folder, would you please check your spam folder to unspam me?
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Yes,I don’t know why it is happening.One Blogger friends has same complain.I will check it.
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Many of them are facing the same problem now!
I don’t know the reason. Even I have to check my spam every now and then, friends are getting lost there.
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Yes,same here .I have updated the WordPress bcoz of this reason .But this problem is not solved yet.
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I know. Few bloggers who visit each other almost evry day are being spammed! I hope it just gets solved soon, not many check the spam folder every now and then. I wouldn’t want to loose contact with my fellow bloggers.
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Same here .From Now ,I will check spam too.
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That will be a good idea for those who are lost there.
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Yes,but need to find its permanent solution.I will check from net .Google
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If you do find out any solution please let me know.
I have tried here and there, but haven’t got any solution yet, so.
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Yes,sure .Till then do one thing .Just make post and tell the problem .Let your fellow bloggers must know that why they are not getting response .May be they have some solutions for it.
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This news is all over my feed, people do know that there is some problem going on. Still I’ll try and do that as soon as I can.
Thanks dear.
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Welcome dear😆
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I usually go do house work . Physical tiredness tends to wear me out and I am good to sleep again.
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Yes, that might help but physical exertion or anything for that matter does not help you sleep when your mind is not at rest.
Thanks for your read.
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Beautiful dear….that’s what exactly happens to me sometimes
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Thank you so much.
I know the pain, so I think I can relate to your you here.
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I’ve dealt with insomnia pretty badly ever since I gave birth to my daughter, so I can definitely relate to having nights like this. Sometimes you just have to give up and get up, haha.
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Thank you so much dear for your thoughts, and giving this a read. I truly appreciate it.
And I agree, sometimes we just have to give up and wake up!
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Lol this is exactly wat happens to me almost every second night …i can relate to this post
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I am glad you can relate to it.
It is one of a kind feeling, isn’t it?
Thanks a lot for stopping by and sharing your views.
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