What Do You Do?

What do you do when something occupies too much of your time, too much of the space in your already overthinking mind?

What do you do when things that happen are absolutely out of your control?

What do you do when there are only negative thoughts, and more destructive thoughts making home in your heart and mind?

Needless to say the first suggestion would be to talk things out, to share your woes and doubts with people who care about you.

You pray and hope, and calm your mind but those little evil people are trapped within you.

Then comes the idea of writing your feelings down, word by word. Writers often tend to this technique to cure the ache.

But you see, when desperation kicks in, you go as far as writing your frame of mind and even burning the sheet down to mere ashes; repeatedly!

What do you do when despite all the efforts, those thoughts and feelings stick with you?

What do you do when your thoughts are absolutely out of control? When those thoughts, pains you like a piercing needle, slowly seeping blood out?

What do you do when you can take no more?

What do you do when nothing helps, and even the thoughts (the fact that it is not happening in reality, it is only a thought and a feeling in my head is significant here) shatter you to the core?

What do you when you can’t face the consequences of those thoughts?

 

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

35 thoughts on “What Do You Do?

  1. Hope all is well your end Moushmi. All of go through rough patches like this. Sometimes crying helps one to purge out all the negatives. Listening to soothing and relaxing music does help in addition to talking it out with people close to you!

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  2. I know the pain moushmi.It’s all in the head but sometimes we can’t do anything.It’s a hellw.only Time is the healer,some times I doubt even time is not the healer because even days and years are moving forward.I still remain at the same state and position.

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  3. This is a normal way of humanness we go through …seeking guidance from a trusted source on a continual basis helps in my perspective. Check out the works of Abraham Hicks …even listening to you tube tapes is a good thought replacement therapy 🙂 There’s many other master teachers …explore and see what you connect to. I believe in not living with my own thoughts when I become aware that they are not useful for me. I replace them with tapes from master teachers.

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  4. I think answers will come to when you have some peace in mind that peace would also help you concentrate on the right and for to gain that peace do things that brings smile on your face could be dance, music or take some walks and get fresh oxygen for u. It might help.
    Hope you’re good 😊

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  5. I cry… Honestly.. But just because you cry doesn’t mean, you are weak…
    At some point we have to let it all out… and after that, we have to get up and continue the journey…
    Frustration might trap us, but don’t let darkness eat us up… ☺😄❤❤

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      1. It heals i think…or how you define healing…if healing is about not getting that same feeling of pain on remembering the incident then it’s healing…and scars do remain as a reminder! …it also depends on the duration of time and the intensity of pain…the more the pain the more time it will take…precursor to healing is patience…i am just drawing it from my personal experience….the pain of losing dear one forever will be severe but nothing can be done…the mind is trained to understand this over time…the memories fade…and are over-written by new memories…and then it’s finally accepted that it’s the reality and you cant do anything…now it doesn’t pain…but yes scars remain…by time i mean years like in my case took 5 years to come out of it!

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