A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM โAn Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.
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I have been pretty good lately! But worried about you…you dont sound ok…what happened?? Did anybody hurt you? I know words hurt more than physical injury but learn to let go (if thatโs the case)….hope you are ok now
I dont know what happened but would like to advise you to come out of it as soon as possible …itโs ok to sulk or be sad if you want to but only if it makes you realize your mistake and not to repeat it again, make your resolve stronger and make you a wiser person…..otherwise remaining in this state for long is dangerous! Try to take things positively and share with trusted friends if you have any.
If it was because you expected something from someone and it didnt happen then you know they donโt deserve anything from your side except a well-directed kick…and in general you dont have to expect anything from anyone because expectations hurt when not met so better not to have one!
If it was because you were deceived into something then it means you have a pure heart which cannot be spoilt with this one occurrence but it will make you more cautious for future. Everyone makes mistakes. Itโs ok. Let it go. Happens with many specially those who have innocent and pure heart. Now you can protect yourself better. And those who did it will pay someday.
If it was because you lost something then it has to happen someday as nothing is permanent and you will get something better in return. And it will make you stronger the next time any such thing happen.
If itโs due to any materialistic thing then remember they are meant to be gone and donโt deserve any emotional attachment. Whatever it is, just try to deal with it strongly and positively.
I myself have gone through such phases of deceit, betrayal, loss and except harming my mental and physical health they did no good – believe me!!
Hence itโs better to deal with such situations with a steely resolve and subdue them before they make you miserable. Believe me, the ill effects of such negative events and their aftermath on our health is torturous and even beyond our control.
So whatever it was, itโs history now and the best use of it is only to make you wiser and strong and rest should be flushed away. If you believe in the philosophy of whatever happens for a reason then take it that way. Whatever troubles came in your way came for a reason to teach you something and to make you stronger to deal with such events better in future.
I hate to see such a wonderful person like you getting drawn in any such shit . I know for an emotional person even a small hurtful instance snowballs into a heartbreaking juggernaut and it wrecks the heart. But please try to control it at the start itself by diverting your mind completely and thinking about the good things in your life. Because what matters most is your happiness and health and nothing else. So anything which comes in the way of stealing your happiness doesnโt deserve your time and attention. Just get rid of it and the negative thoughts associated with it. Be a little selfish for yourself and your happinessโ sake! Now give me a big smile please!! ๐
PS: sorry for being preachy…i dont have skills to lift morale or boost confidence or console but just trying to make you see the positive side.
Sifar, you are wrong in saying that you don’t have the skill to boost confidence and lift morale. In the end you did bring that smile on my face.
Thanks so much for whatever you siad here, it truly honestly means a lot.
My problem being, I cannot discuss my feelings clearly out to anyone, you still kind of helped me here. See, the irony? You call me writer, but then I can’t even put my feelings into words.
Anyway, I am getting better, day by day.
It cannot happen overnight for me, I am sorry I can’t do that.
And it isn’t that simple. As much as I am hurting, I have guilt too, at the back of my mind, which makes me scared for future.
So one step at a time, I am trying to be better ๐
Thanks a lot, again.
Sorry i have been traveling hence couldn’t come back soon but was thinking about you. Hope you are fine by now and have recovered mentally!
Happy if i could be of any help.
When a writer cant write out his/her feelings then that only means one thing – the pain and hurt is too much and it has choked the heart to an extent that words can’t come out. The mere writing of few words will bring back all the painful memories rendering the fingers immobile.The combination of hurt and guilt is toxic and deadly!! I am usually able to express myself in writing and it lessens the pain but i have been through such a phase too when i couldn’t even write about it. In such cases just let time heal. So probably i can feel a little if not all of what you went through. It’s ok if it cant be done overnight for you…if it can be done in weeks or months then also it will do and after that it will never bother you. What happened is history now! Your future will be fine. Dont overthink. You may have let your guards down once but it’s going to strengthen your defences for future. And knowing the kind of person you are i am sure you will bounce back firmly! Fight on dear!!
Let’s change the topic as well.
So what else in life? Are you planning to go on any vacation? (It’s a good time!) Any cousin-weddings to plan? ๐ Anything special for Valentine’s day? ๐๐
Did i tell you…im planning a trip next month to Rajasthan!! Going on vacation with friends after almost 6 years!! Very excited about it!!
And watchout for my next post…it will make you happy i am sure!! I will write it soon!
Till then dont let that smile fade out!!! Turn it into a grin instead!! ๐
PS: you are always going to be one awesome and inspiring writer in my view so never let any doubt or irony come near this!! ๐
Thanks a lot Sifar, this was inspiring.
Well, as a matter of fact, I just returned from Rajasthan from one of my friend’s wedding, thankfully though I wasn’t planning it, I just enjoyed it..
And now new trips planned as yet,
ABput my valentine plans, you’ll no through my blog post of 13th feb. What about you? How was your valentine?
I sincerely hope you enjoy the trip to Rajasthan, you deserve that.
An will be expectantly waiting for that blog post of yours ๐ Don’t keeep me waiting ๐
Rajasthan wedding sounds so exciting!! (esp which you have to enjoy only and not plan!๐) …I think when i go that time is also a wedding season…i am going anywhere after so many years that im a little anxious too! Hope everything goes well..
Ok will know about your valentine plan from your blog (hopefully you were not alone!)…mine was spent in travelling…20hour train journey! ๐ฃ..and I reached mumbai in the evening and got back to setting up and cleaning my apartment again! That sums it up! ๐
Yes I really hope my trip goes well…will be going to udaipur and jaipur…
Yes that blog post is on itโs way soon ๐๐..will not keep you waiting for long!
I will give you a spoiler, yes I was alone on Valentines.
But then that is the way it has always been. (Specially, somehow on the valentines, I am always alone.)
I am pretty sure that you will have a gala time in Rajasthan, go to all the tourist places, but above all go to the local markets, not only for shopping, but from there you get to know the real culture, you can get the taste of local food to. You cannot come back from Rajasthan without trying ghevar, rabdi, dal-bati churma, and the list goes on for me..
If at all possible visit all the forts, they will just capture you, and try and visit ‘choki-dhani’ that is where you can sum up Rajasthan, I guess. (Not been there, though, just heard.)
PS- Still waiting for your blog post.
Oh you were alone! That sucks! ๐ฃ and sad to hear this from someone like you!! I will read your post soon!
I am this way on every occasion and everyday hence used to it now…sometimes write about it if it gets too much…i prefer staying indoors so that dont get to see what im missing!! Pretending itโs not happening!! ๐
Yes im looking forward to Rajasthan trip…i hope the weather doesnโt play spoilsport as yesterday only there was a news that summer has already kicked in early this year and itโs going to be hotter this time than ever before ๐ฐ and it was i who forced my friend to goto rajasthan as i really wanted to see forts and enjoy the cuisine and local culture while he wanted to goto a hill-station!!! If weather spoils it then whole trip pe taane sunne padenge usse!! ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฃ i like visiting historical places and local cultures!
Yes local market i will definitely visit and i think one whole day is set for it…will be finding out more about them and which ones to go…i love shopping and have already bought an extra bag to take along ๐ and local food of course!! ๐๐ im already gathering info on what all to eat!! All that which you mentioned and then there is kachori in jaipur which is famous!! Suggest more if you know!!
Yes will try to cover all forts if time permits and one day i have reserved for choki-dhani!! I have been to chokhi-dhani in pune and the experience was memorable…hence looking forward to the original one now! Thanks for sharing your experience!!!!
PS: the blog is coming today!!
Oh by addictive i meant the way you describe your travels in blog posts…detailing each day…sharing everything….building suspense…surprise visitors…your reactions…ending in cliff-hangers…we get to go along with you , laugh with you, cry with you and feel alive with you! … so the whole series gets very addictive!
Happy new year to you also!
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Thank you ๐
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Happppppiee new year moushmiii
Have a great nd blessed year ahead
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Thanks dear ๐
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Happy New Year moushi..already told in twitter but let me just wish you here also
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Thanks dear ๐
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A very happy new year to you too.
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Happy new year
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Thank you ๐
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Happy New Year Moushmi โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
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Thanks dear ๐
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Happy Wala new year to you Moushmi ๐
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Thank you so much Radhika ๐
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Wish you a very happy new year ๐
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Thank you ๐
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Wishing you a very happy New Year !
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Thanks dear ๐
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Happy 2018. Thatโs a great resolution ๐
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Thanks dear ๐
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Wish you an amazing year ahead!
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Thanks dear, I wish the same for you ๐
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Happy new year! great resolution. Problem is, how?
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The path with unravel itself, I have come to believe that ๐
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Happy new year Moushmi ๐๐
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Thank you so much Sachin ๐
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Where were you so many days?
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Just lost ๐
How have you been ?
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Lost, with a smile? ๐
I have been good!!
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No, just lost in life!!
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Okay. I hope you are doing good โบ
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I am better, I hope you are good too.
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Yeah. I am doing good.
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Perfect new year resolution. Kudos. Happy new year ๐
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Thank you so much dear ๐
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Wish you lovely new year dear with more and more adventures…
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Thank you so much Akhila, I hope you are having a wonderful year as of now ๐
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How r u dear ? A long time .
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I am good, how have you been?
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I ‘m also good by god grace . Happy to see you again ๐
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Reblogged this on Die Erste Eslarner Zeitung – Aus und รผber Eslarn, sowie die bayerisch-tschechische Region!.
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Thanks Michael ๐
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Always my pleasure! Have a good weekend. Michael
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You too ๐
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Happy new year…๐
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Same to you dear ๐
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Wishing you a wonderful year ahead Moushmi! To improve oneself is the perfect resolution. XXX
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Thank you so much Smitha ๐
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Hi…is everything ok? Where are you!
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Hi Sifar,
How have you been? I am good, (now)
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I have been pretty good lately! But worried about you…you dont sound ok…what happened?? Did anybody hurt you? I know words hurt more than physical injury but learn to let go (if thatโs the case)….hope you are ok now
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No, nobody’s hurt me,
As always it’s me that has fallen under a trap, who has yet again been a victim of her own fallacy.
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I dont know what happened but would like to advise you to come out of it as soon as possible …itโs ok to sulk or be sad if you want to but only if it makes you realize your mistake and not to repeat it again, make your resolve stronger and make you a wiser person…..otherwise remaining in this state for long is dangerous! Try to take things positively and share with trusted friends if you have any.
If it was because you expected something from someone and it didnt happen then you know they donโt deserve anything from your side except a well-directed kick…and in general you dont have to expect anything from anyone because expectations hurt when not met so better not to have one!
If it was because you were deceived into something then it means you have a pure heart which cannot be spoilt with this one occurrence but it will make you more cautious for future. Everyone makes mistakes. Itโs ok. Let it go. Happens with many specially those who have innocent and pure heart. Now you can protect yourself better. And those who did it will pay someday.
If it was because you lost something then it has to happen someday as nothing is permanent and you will get something better in return. And it will make you stronger the next time any such thing happen.
If itโs due to any materialistic thing then remember they are meant to be gone and donโt deserve any emotional attachment. Whatever it is, just try to deal with it strongly and positively.
I myself have gone through such phases of deceit, betrayal, loss and except harming my mental and physical health they did no good – believe me!!
Hence itโs better to deal with such situations with a steely resolve and subdue them before they make you miserable. Believe me, the ill effects of such negative events and their aftermath on our health is torturous and even beyond our control.
So whatever it was, itโs history now and the best use of it is only to make you wiser and strong and rest should be flushed away. If you believe in the philosophy of whatever happens for a reason then take it that way. Whatever troubles came in your way came for a reason to teach you something and to make you stronger to deal with such events better in future.
I hate to see such a wonderful person like you getting drawn in any such shit . I know for an emotional person even a small hurtful instance snowballs into a heartbreaking juggernaut and it wrecks the heart. But please try to control it at the start itself by diverting your mind completely and thinking about the good things in your life. Because what matters most is your happiness and health and nothing else. So anything which comes in the way of stealing your happiness doesnโt deserve your time and attention. Just get rid of it and the negative thoughts associated with it. Be a little selfish for yourself and your happinessโ sake! Now give me a big smile please!! ๐
PS: sorry for being preachy…i dont have skills to lift morale or boost confidence or console but just trying to make you see the positive side.
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Sifar, you are wrong in saying that you don’t have the skill to boost confidence and lift morale. In the end you did bring that smile on my face.
Thanks so much for whatever you siad here, it truly honestly means a lot.
My problem being, I cannot discuss my feelings clearly out to anyone, you still kind of helped me here. See, the irony? You call me writer, but then I can’t even put my feelings into words.
Anyway, I am getting better, day by day.
It cannot happen overnight for me, I am sorry I can’t do that.
And it isn’t that simple. As much as I am hurting, I have guilt too, at the back of my mind, which makes me scared for future.
So one step at a time, I am trying to be better ๐
Thanks a lot, again.
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Sorry i have been traveling hence couldn’t come back soon but was thinking about you. Hope you are fine by now and have recovered mentally!
Happy if i could be of any help.
When a writer cant write out his/her feelings then that only means one thing – the pain and hurt is too much and it has choked the heart to an extent that words can’t come out. The mere writing of few words will bring back all the painful memories rendering the fingers immobile.The combination of hurt and guilt is toxic and deadly!! I am usually able to express myself in writing and it lessens the pain but i have been through such a phase too when i couldn’t even write about it. In such cases just let time heal. So probably i can feel a little if not all of what you went through. It’s ok if it cant be done overnight for you…if it can be done in weeks or months then also it will do and after that it will never bother you. What happened is history now! Your future will be fine. Dont overthink. You may have let your guards down once but it’s going to strengthen your defences for future. And knowing the kind of person you are i am sure you will bounce back firmly! Fight on dear!!
Let’s change the topic as well.
So what else in life? Are you planning to go on any vacation? (It’s a good time!) Any cousin-weddings to plan? ๐ Anything special for Valentine’s day? ๐๐
Did i tell you…im planning a trip next month to Rajasthan!! Going on vacation with friends after almost 6 years!! Very excited about it!!
And watchout for my next post…it will make you happy i am sure!! I will write it soon!
Till then dont let that smile fade out!!! Turn it into a grin instead!! ๐
PS: you are always going to be one awesome and inspiring writer in my view so never let any doubt or irony come near this!! ๐
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Thanks a lot Sifar, this was inspiring.
Well, as a matter of fact, I just returned from Rajasthan from one of my friend’s wedding, thankfully though I wasn’t planning it, I just enjoyed it..
And now new trips planned as yet,
ABput my valentine plans, you’ll no through my blog post of 13th feb. What about you? How was your valentine?
I sincerely hope you enjoy the trip to Rajasthan, you deserve that.
An will be expectantly waiting for that blog post of yours ๐ Don’t keeep me waiting ๐
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Rajasthan wedding sounds so exciting!! (esp which you have to enjoy only and not plan!๐) …I think when i go that time is also a wedding season…i am going anywhere after so many years that im a little anxious too! Hope everything goes well..
Ok will know about your valentine plan from your blog (hopefully you were not alone!)…mine was spent in travelling…20hour train journey! ๐ฃ..and I reached mumbai in the evening and got back to setting up and cleaning my apartment again! That sums it up! ๐
Yes I really hope my trip goes well…will be going to udaipur and jaipur…
Yes that blog post is on itโs way soon ๐๐..will not keep you waiting for long!
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I will give you a spoiler, yes I was alone on Valentines.
But then that is the way it has always been. (Specially, somehow on the valentines, I am always alone.)
I am pretty sure that you will have a gala time in Rajasthan, go to all the tourist places, but above all go to the local markets, not only for shopping, but from there you get to know the real culture, you can get the taste of local food to. You cannot come back from Rajasthan without trying ghevar, rabdi, dal-bati churma, and the list goes on for me..
If at all possible visit all the forts, they will just capture you, and try and visit ‘choki-dhani’ that is where you can sum up Rajasthan, I guess. (Not been there, though, just heard.)
PS- Still waiting for your blog post.
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Oh you were alone! That sucks! ๐ฃ and sad to hear this from someone like you!! I will read your post soon!
I am this way on every occasion and everyday hence used to it now…sometimes write about it if it gets too much…i prefer staying indoors so that dont get to see what im missing!! Pretending itโs not happening!! ๐
Yes im looking forward to Rajasthan trip…i hope the weather doesnโt play spoilsport as yesterday only there was a news that summer has already kicked in early this year and itโs going to be hotter this time than ever before ๐ฐ and it was i who forced my friend to goto rajasthan as i really wanted to see forts and enjoy the cuisine and local culture while he wanted to goto a hill-station!!! If weather spoils it then whole trip pe taane sunne padenge usse!! ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฃ i like visiting historical places and local cultures!
Yes local market i will definitely visit and i think one whole day is set for it…will be finding out more about them and which ones to go…i love shopping and have already bought an extra bag to take along ๐ and local food of course!! ๐๐ im already gathering info on what all to eat!! All that which you mentioned and then there is kachori in jaipur which is famous!! Suggest more if you know!!
Yes will try to cover all forts if time permits and one day i have reserved for choki-dhani!! I have been to chokhi-dhani in pune and the experience was memorable…hence looking forward to the original one now! Thanks for sharing your experience!!!!
PS: the blog is coming today!!
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I am heading right there then ๐
Enjoy your trip, early summer or not.
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Yes sure!!! Cant wait to go!!! Will try to share the experience here (though will not be able to do it like the addictive way you do!!)
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Hey, I can’t be called addictive, I had a really long break this Jan ๐
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Oh by addictive i meant the way you describe your travels in blog posts…detailing each day…sharing everything….building suspense…surprise visitors…your reactions…ending in cliff-hangers…we get to go along with you , laugh with you, cry with you and feel alive with you! … so the whole series gets very addictive!
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Hahaha,
I hope then that, that is a good thing.
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Yes indeed!! ๐
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Hi.
A new blog I discover.
I really appreciate your work and a very happy new year๐
Hugs and ๐ป cheers
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Thank you so much dear,
I am glad to connect with you ๐
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