Lost!

Posted byMoushmi RadhanparaPosted inMy blogger Friends., My Reality MirrorTags:, , , , , , , , , , ,

I have been off lately, from blogging, from WordPress for which I don’t even have a specific reason.

It all started a while ago when I started drifting off from everything, even the things which gave me pleasure, started boring me. I don’t know how it started, but somehow it all led to me being a complete static person. I wouldn’t say I was too busy working, or studying, I was simply occupied with my day to day work, from which I could take time out for everything, even blogging.

BUT THE PROBLEM IS, I DIDN’T DO IT.

I DID NOTHING.

I wouldn’t say I was away from work too, no, that didn’t happen. Everything kept going on as it should, but only without interest and my heart in it. Life moved on, but I wasn’t truly happy with what was  happening.

My friends and family of course thinks all is well because by now I have mastered the art of deceiving my feelings in front of them. My social life too seemed pretty active which these days, make people believe that the person is all right!

So when I logged into WordPress to find so many people concerned about my absence, I was truly touched. I wouldn’t say I am good now, the process of recovery is still going on. But I am way better than I was a few days ago.

What happened? I don’t know!

I just lost the motivation to do anything in particular. I have been simply sulking, having lost the vigor to do anything. This anything comprises from blogging to studying to even talking to people.

I hope to get out of this mood soon enough. I hope to find my path soon.

But before that I truly thank you all for even considering my absence in your thoughts.

 

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

31 thoughts on “Lost!”

  6. I totally understand! 🙂
    Same thing has happened to me. I’m not desperate or miserable…I just haven’t posted a thing in two months. For me, I think I got out of the blogging mode and now struggling to get back in. Ha!

    But its definitely good to hear from you. I hope you have a great week-end!

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  10. You are always sweet to me moushmi,So when I miss you,I really miss your sweetness.HOPE EVERYTHING IS FINE WITH YOU.I know that you are little unique,and we know that society won’t allow us that..anyway take your own time and come back

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  12. I sometimes feel this way too… Like everything seems loose… And you just stoo caring about things… you don’t even know where these feelings are comming, but you just know you’re sad, and lost…
    It’s so irksome sometimes because even if you want to be happy already, the negative feeling inside you, eats you up, and you’ll feel sad all over again…

    But still, words of encouragement and love from people will really help… Just don’t loose hope…😉❤❤

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  13. Welcome Back Moushmi. It’s good to have you back. All of us have gone through this phase at some point in time. So don’t stress too much. Just know we love your writing and look forward to seeing your posts. Stay motivated and blessed❤ and pray for peace!

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  14. I was in this mood for long until doctor suggested to go for vitamin d test…its deficiency is one of the most important reason of such sulking and depressed mood for no reason…and it turned out i was really deficient in it!! So maybe something similar for you? Not eating properly or lack of nutrients could be one reason!

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