Changes.

Nothing is permanent, except change.

 

Change is the only constant.

 

Things change in life.

 

People come and go.

 

These simple words refuse to sit within my irate mind and destroy its peace. Is it so difficult to grasp these simple facts and live with it?

 

Yes, I know I am being unreasonable, I am and I can’t help it. And you know what, I want to be. For a little while I want to be this super childish person who is for once, just for a little while allowed to make all unnecessary and unreasonable demands. I don’t expect them to get fulfilled, I know they can’t, I juts want them to be there, for a while be the not so mature person.

 

I know things have to change, for good or for worse, I know these people have to go, whether I like it or not, but just for once I want to sit back and whine a little. Because however hard I pretend and try to feel that all of it doesn’t matter, in reality it does. Yes, it does matter.

 

There, I said it. It all matters, it all hurts, and I don’t like it.

 

Having said that, I also understand that I can’t control everything, neither do I want to. I also realize that I will very soon learn to have these changes in my life. I understand that I will accept these changes whole-heartedly, and very soon these things wouldn’t even matter. But until then I want to sit back, lie down, and just for once admit these feelings to myself. For once I want to let myself cry and laugh and do whatever I wish to. I will move on, I just want a little more time to adjust to this change.

 

 

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

46 thoughts on “Changes.

  1. Moushmi you have to honest with yourself and with your emotions..crying,laughing do it..you have to satisfy every emotion you get in mind…don’t hide them and give them a chance to becomes monsters to eat your peace..let them go..

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  2. I wish we all could accept changes easily but to be honest we all need time…I know we just can’t run away from reality and we have to face the reality anyhow but what is important is to know what we want…what we wanna do…

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  3. And the more you express that change within you, the more you become that change. It is your hearts (and God’s), way of loving you, to guide you to a new way of being, slowly guiding you to that unconditional love that we all seek.
    He knows we are on an unknown path so He slowly give us a little guidance here and there so that we will eventually discover that beauty that is waiting within.
    Hard…sometimes it is…but only by going through it will we appreciate what we have endured, and in doing so love ourselves….fully, openly, unconditionally because of it.
    Have faith in yourself, for one day you will take a step and there before you will be a crack, a breakthrough that will allow in some light and suddenly your path becomes a little clearer, your walls of fear crumble a little more and your happiness lifts your heart so that you can finally feel what this journey is all about…you and that love we deny ourselves…so that we can understand and become that unconditional love that we seek ❤

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  4. Changes are always required nd as u told evrythn changes as tym passess
    Nd it mght take tym to move on nd live wth the changes but one day u wll surely get over it.
    Hope for the best
    Be positive
    💞💞💞💞💞💞

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  5. I know i had to read this but got delayed but better late than never! And boy isnt this something which I really needed to read all these days!!! These and many more have been my EXACT THOUGHTS all these days or months…as i prepare myself mentally to embrace a change! and i can see what you mean here…i hate change and sometimes goto great lengths to fight off any hint of change in life…yes i like to stay in the city i have adjust to, in the company of friends, the same grocery store and the same daily lifestyle…as that makes sure i have atleast one part of my life sane and sorted!! And then i see people leaving, things changing and my small world slipping through my fingers while i try to hold back the sands! And then someone says it’s change…it’s life….and that’s how it’s! And i have to accept it as it’s beyond my control…what all i can do is raise hue and cry and rant and sob till i get over the fact and accept it finally!! 😞 and in the process weaken a part of my heart again!

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