I feel helpless today.
As helpless as I haven’t felt in a long time.
As helpless, as I think I can never feel.
The epitome of helplessness.
And yet, I feel this can go on,
On and on for quite a while.
And yet I feel that I can feel even more helpless.
But what could be more than this, I wonder?
Because, this what I feel today, is beyond my ways of expressions.
This what I feel today is beyond my perception,
This is beyond me.
And yet I know not, what to do. And yet I know not how much more helpless can I feel.
Because this feels more than enough,
More than what I thought I could take.
I thought I am doing my best
But even the best seems less than the best.
Nothing seems to be working,
Everything keeps coming,
And I feel helpless.
I thought I could take it,
I thought I could do something,
But now, depite all the efforts,
I feel helpless.
I feel as helpless as I would have felt in
Drowning into that ocean,
Without knowing how to swim.