Helpless.

I feel helpless today.

So helpless,

As helpless as I haven’t felt in a long time.

As helpless, as I think I can never feel.

The epitome of helplessness.

And yet, I feel this can go on,

On and on for quite a while.

And yet I feel that I can feel even more helpless.

But what could be more than this, I wonder?

Because, this what I feel today, is beyond my ways of expressions.

This what I feel today is beyond my perception,

This is beyond me.

And yet I know not, what to do. And yet I know not how much more helpless can I feel.

Because this feels more than enough,

More than what I thought I could take.

 

I thought I am doing my best

But even the best seems less than the best.

Nothing seems to be working,

Everything keeps coming,

And I feel helpless.

 

I thought I could take it,

I thought I could do something,

But now, depite all the efforts,

I feel helpless.

 

I feel as helpless as I would have felt in

Drowning into that ocean,

Without knowing how to swim.

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

49 thoughts on “Helpless.

  1. And maybe this is a wave that will pass through …Just be in the space of possibility of this being true. And maybe it is ok to feel this for however long it wants to stay. Stay in the possibility and letting go and allowing the wave to carry you …

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      1. Yes absolutely true Moushmi but we only bring nonsense in our lives and it happens with all humans let me tell u no one is escaping from this helplessness. Even I go through this process but being on WordPress, reading or seeing motivational books and movies then u realize that ha what track do we need to have.

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  2. You often go into this phase and then you emerge stronger! So I believe you will again!! 👍🏻
    I missed all these posts as i was sick during this time!! Lets see how many i can cover up now!! 😀😀

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      1. Haha….getting dramatic sometimes helps in reducing the intensity of the pain….i feel so atleast…and i do it too 🙈🙈….and i feel we do it only when there is someone to listen and react like when we are with family….or let out here on wp since this is also like a family! 🤔😀

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