A Writer Without Words!

Today, they introduced me as a writer, and honestly, I did not see that coming. People keep telling me, that I am a writer, but there is some part of me that still does not believe that.

Anyways so there I was being introduced as a writer, and then the irony struck me. The very same morning I was struggling with words to describe what I was feeling, and I failed. Then I tried completing my assignments, failed! And then I started working on a fictional plot, at which I failed again.

I am not talking about the writers’ block, I kept writing, I kept taking notes, I kept typing, but I was not satisfied with it, I still felt that the feelings were unclear, and what I was saying were mere words. But if they were words, then why was I feeling the absence of emotions. And if I had words, then was I not a writer after all? But then only putting words isn’t a writers job, his job is to bring even fiction to reality. So where was I going wrong?

I had words, but still I felt I was not a writer.

On second thoughts, I felt I did not even have the words, all I had was the feeling, the love, the hatred, required for being a writer. The words that I say I wrote, were not mine, they did not justify how I felt, how I wanted things to come out, they simply did a job of being portrayed as a writer’s work. They were just there on paper.

So now, I did not even have words, and yet I was a writer?

 

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

50 thoughts on “A Writer Without Words!

  1. The feeling is all that is required, and to write about it, to be a writer. You are a good writer. To be the kind of writer to whom words always come, now it is necessary only to write 1,000 words every day. It doesn’t matter what you write about, or if anyone ever reads it or not. Write a thousand words a day and you’re there.

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  2. For penning this post you are definitely a writer 🙂 Struggling with words and executing them is so me. There is a scare deep within and been a struggle with my rom-com for years between writing, abandoning and again reviving. Been city in a coffee shop for quite some time to work on it what with roadblocks. It’s set in Mumbai, by the way

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  3. Oftentimes I feel that no amount of words, no matter how eloquent or sincere, could ever describe the incomprehensible magic and wonder that occurs in the mind of a writer. We have entire worlds inside of our heads. Entire people – and not only do we live with the minds of our own, we live with the minds of our characters; the people that we create. There’s always so much going on in our minds. It’s no wonder that we struggle to get it down onto paper every now and then. Nevertheless, persevere, because although we may doubt ourselves, what’s meant to be written will be written. Trust the pen. Trust the art of imagination.

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    1. Thank you so much for this wonderful comment. I read it agin, and again.
      And I completely, truly agree with you when you say that we have the entire worlds inside our minds, and sometimes because, we tend to think and try to write so much, we struggle a lot only to bring out our actual feelings.
      Thanks again, for visiting, and leaving behind this wonderful comment.

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  4. I will not comment here else you will again call me a flatterer…😅….but i think you have your answer already by now after so many posts since this post was written which has readers swooning over them!!! 😀

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