I Wanted To Heal You….!!

Yesterday, I posted this, and I felt exactly the words deep in my life, something that came out from inside my heart, but somehow I was not satisfied with the end. I hated my own poetry, my own work, my own thoughts, leaving my readers and myself without hope, and hence I came up with a little different conclusion today.


Do let me know which one of the endings did you like more?


I wanted; wanted

To take away all our pain,

To free you from your aches,

To envelope you in my embrace,

To make you forget all that can’t be erased.


I wanted; wanted

To kiss all your tears,

To chase away all your fears,

To taste all your wounds,

To chaperone you to the tombs.


I wanted; wanted

To cure you of your grief,

To surcease all your strife,

To heal your body, your soul,

To be your cure, an antidote.


I wanted; wanted

To give you all my happiness,

To bestow you only with blissfulness,

To free you of the enchains,

To liberate you, of all the restrains.


And in doing so,

I lost my exulted ecstasy,

My humorous joviality,

My peace, my calm,

My tranquility, the only charm.


And in doing so,

I reached someplace called inferno,

Burning, writhing, for how long I don’t know.

In healing you, I lost myself,

My body, my soul,

And there was left, no antidote.



But then someday, one day,

I rose to that Elysium,

Finessing away all your delirium,

Proliferating my poise,

Vanquishing the void,

Conquering the little forgotten calm,

Regaining all the lost charm.

And I liberated from your chains, with time,

The long lost, yet my lustrous smile.





Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

46 thoughts on “I Wanted To Heal You….!!

  1. I would not choose either one of the two poems to be better. Poetry is a beautiful raw expression of our emotions and the phases we go through in our self-discovery. It is so amazing that you flow into the second version of your poetry within no time – leading you to choose the exact emotion you would want to reach from the one you landed in the previous one. Emotions are such powerful indicators of where we are, and it was beautiful how you recognized you didn’t want to stay with the previous one. You ended this one absolutely well – finding yourself with your smile again and giving us one 🙂
    My humble view on you 2 posts 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much Pragalbha.
      I did realise that I had to do something about it, I did not want the sad version, and I am only glad that I have this positive end to it now. Even if this was fictional, I would like to have made peace with a happy ending.

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  2. Both are wonderful. I like you tend to like hope and peace and happiness in the end if not throughout. And of course it can not always be throughout. I feel your wanting to go back and change it is your wanting to move into the more happy place for yourself and your readers. It is admirable. And your sharing the process is even more admirable.

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  3. I liked the previous ending too. Although this one tells me, yes there is hope, a glimmer of it, may be far away, beyond the horizon and the boat of time will take us there. To the valley of happiness where we’ll smile again.

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