A tickin’ and a tockin’

Most of the times I feel about New Years like this:

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But then instantly, I have a regret, a guilt for being so pessimistic and my thought turns to something like this:

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I mean I have done it wrong, year after year, only trying, or rather barely trying to make things better, to improve myself. And year after year, I am barely floating above the level, but I am still there, trying. So why not this year too? (Not that I have a choice not to try)

So, I think and think more, which is what I am really a master at and decide that let what’s gone, go and welcome what wants to come. Instead of merging past, present and future, and struggling to barely keep up, I decide to just breathe. Peace is all I want, now. Lat year, had been too much of a roller coaster for me, nothing I could not handle, but given the chance I would have liked to dodge that bullet! But now all’s in the past, and I have never really looked up to New Years as I am looking up for this one. Nothing awaits me, not that I know of, but I am hoping against hope, that it would be a slightly better year than the last one.

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So, I am really not fretting over my past, not worrying about my future, all I want to do right now is, live in the moment, hoping against all hopes that things will turn out as they should be. (Because clearly however much I kick around in the air some things are really not under my control).

So, wishing all the lovely people around here, a very peaceful and a bright new year.

PS: As I write this down, Mr. Coffee hater is persistently cooing at me, wanting all the attention that I was clearly devoting to my computer. And just as I take the shot below, he winks at me, flutters his wing, and soars away! The attention seeker that he is!! Ufff…

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In case you don’t know who this person is who hates coffee; you can visit the link below: Mr. Coffee Hater- My New Friend!

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

31 thoughts on “A tickin’ and a tockin’

      1. Thanks so much Moushmi. Wishing you your share of happiness and some more and some more this year and beyond. We never met but I know you must be an absolute delight for a company and you my friend deserve nothing but the best. Wishing all such thoughts and some more

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  1. Hey! Happy New year. I agree with this perspective and decided to empty 2018 trash, trying not to let things that happened affect me. A new season of cheerz but at the same time, just a calendar change what with this overrated celebration or resolutions that don’t work with me.

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