Please, please just let me be…

Posted byMoushmi RadhanparaPosted inHuman Nature, Ramblings of my mind.Tags:, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Please don’t come again.

I am good, if not at best, without you.

Please just go away.

Please, just let me be.

 

It was really difficult

To disentangle from your black chains,

It was claustrophobic

To always be in your embrace.

 

When you are around

I am not happy,

I am not myself,

I am someone I never want to be.

 

Even your shadows are too dark.

When you are around,

I can barely see straight,

It is all just a maddening gaze.

 

When you are around

Every single thing is black,

Every thing is not beautiful,

Every single thing is not acceptable.

 

Even the smallest thing disturbs me,

Every petty thing gets on me.

I cry and crib over every insignificant thing,

I try and trip over every attempt of smiling.

 

When you are around

My friends turn to enemies,

And I try to find solace in those frenemies,

Failing at the attempt of even breathing.

 

I just can’t see through anything.

My vision blurs

And it is difficult even breathing

I drown and drown absolutely giving in.

 

I have told you,

Please don’t come back

My vision blurs

And I see only black.

 

It is very difficult

To disentangle from your black embrace.

It is always choking

To be tied to your steely embrace.

 

Please, please don’t come back

I am good, if not at best without you.

Please just go away,

Please, please just let me be.

 

PS: Before anyone asks, this is not dedicated to anyone. So the ‘you’ in the above poem is not a person, if it can be called a poem at all.

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog https://aestheticmiradh.com/ and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

51 thoughts on “Please, please just let me be…”

    1. Thank you so much for the way you have perceived it. The only problem that still persists is that the ‘you’ is not a person. It is a kind of deadening feeling, too dreadful. And before you ask em to get rid of it, I will say ‘I am trying.’

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      1. I understand. It is always easier said than done. Replace that deadening feeling with something that brings smile to you. Think – what makes you smile regardless of time, occasion and situation. That should be your replacement. Sorry, if I am sounding like a therapist

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  8. I am very much positive that “pls do not come again” is not for me as I am going to visit you more & more often.
    After this very long break, starting from you is the best decision.
    I loved your poem and more of the P.S. mesg..haha
    Loved it!

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Your perception holds importance for me.

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