To Be Worthy Or Not To Be!

There are days when I write a four-line poem and am satisfied with my days product.


And then there are days when I go out for a walk, eat the best and the healthiest, pray, get an exceptional work out before sleep (if you know what I mean), rest, work, study for my papers, read a 100 pages of the book I am reading, write an angry poetry, watch a movie (everything not necessarily in the same order) and yet I am just not satisfied! It all still feels worthless and I don’t know what to do with myself.


It is somewhere in the middle that I want to be, trying to find a balance. I don’ want to overdo, and neither do I want to be worthless. But then again, who is to say, I might be just as worthless.

Published by Moushmi Radhanpara

A bilingual writer, Moushmi Radhanpara has authored three poetry collections so far, namely POSIES and 03:21 AM –An Ode to Rust & Restlessness, and Resignation of an Angel. She is also scribbling an unplanned rough draft of a story as a part of NANOWRIMO 2020 and hopes that something might come out of it. She has also co-authored two books, The Lockdown Stories and Mirage so far. Her poetries can be found on her blog and a few other online portals. She believes in the fact that a better reader makes a better writer. Reading a 100 books a year is her latest obsession. She can be found either drunk on coffee or hiding away from everything and admiring the gorgeous sun.

51 thoughts on “To Be Worthy Or Not To Be!

  1. Hehe! Moushumi, i can hear and feel myself in this post. A big same pinch.
    I do a lot of self talk specially on the days I feel low. I am an absolute work in progress. I. Trying not to aim for perfection and accepting myself without any conditions 😊

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  2. Wow true words of how you are feeling, Moushmi and let me tell you even I too feel like that on most days, feel as if where and what is happening with my life too though even I write poems, stories but no balance. I think a little bit of mindfulness is required. Great reading.

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  3. every single person is worthy and precious .. find your passion, get the balance and life will look up … some people do need medication for that kick start if it gets too gloomy 🙂

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  4. Don’t we all sometimes get too harsh on ourselves ….self worth is a very important lesson to learn ……once done …. contentment follows …. I know it’s easier said than done …….but aren’t we all work in progress

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  5. I think all writers go through this from time to time, Moushumi. We start thinking that our writing isn’t very good, or we justl get bored with our routine. It feels like the myth of Sysiphus, who was cursed to roll a large boulder to the top of a mountain, just to have it roll back down again, and he would be forced to roll it back up, time after time, while the boulder keeps rolling back down again and again, for all eternity. And you begin to feel, what’s the point? But this dissatisfaction is all an illusion. We are just too hard on ourselves.

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  6. Remind of the song – why don’t you meet me in the middle 😊 – the human mind is miscreant and abstract – it is hard to comprehend – for me it helps when I have a pair of ears to speak out – did you try that?

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  7. This feeling of worthlessness often irks me from time to time…Guess what life often flung at us quite unfairly and there are days where nothing works and the rare ones, we can express happiness. Sending you love and light!

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  8. I doubt it very much that you’re worthless! But I know those days that feel like there’s a dark spot in the corner of your mind-room you just can’t see into. You’re spot on for seeking balance because that’s really the best of both worlds, still wanting but also satisfied. Perhaps such days are the ones that are asking us to do something different, push the boundaries a little bit.

    Best to you! 😀 Thanks for sharing.

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  9. I can definitely relate to this. I feel more worthy and accomplished when I’m productive but I’m learning that it’s really toxic to base of self esteem on what we produce. Self Worth is extremely important. Great post 💜

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