I haven’t read a few pages in ten days
Haven’t looked at the books in a long time
No paperbacks, no hardcovers,
No ebooks, no audiobooks.
I haven’t sat down to drink a glass of water in peace
I forget the taste of coffee
I gulp it down, hot and fast
Haven’t heard the voice of a tune
No melodies echo, only cranky cankerous crowd
My legs ache of standing up
My knees wobble of nervousness
I hide to the balcony every now and then
No, no silence there
The kids echo their laughter on the playground
The society is vibrant and joyous
But I feel none of that. I smile.
I smile at the little fights. But.
But I don’t feel happy
No smiles are worth anymore.
Can boredom kill you with impatience,
Or with morbidity
Or with disinterest?
I forget the sunset now
The sun rises everyday
But I can’t see the sun
It’s not so bright
But the rays don’t touch my body, it aches
The tears knock but refuse,
Refuse to come out and break.
The hollowness that I so dreaded has left
Who knew I’d miss it now. Its so heavy.
So heavy that I can’t hold it anymore
There is no other way
No place I can sit and breathe
No one I can whisper my secrets to
Nothing to hold onto
I cannot hold it anymore
8 thoughts on “Shoulders”
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Just hold on a little longer..
The pace of life can be debilitating. I look forward to reading the “But” part.
This really spoke to me. I hope you are ok.
This is deep. I like the way it ends. 😀
The words resonate with me Moushmi and beautifully evocated:)
powerful prose, keep breathing you know a way out and are a very strong lady … prays and thoughts are with you!
This resonates so much Moushumi.Kudos to you for expressing yourself the way you did.Just the fact that you’ve acknowledged these feelings is going to help a lot of people.Keep going!!