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A Million Little Things!

From unknown to known,

From being fellow bloggers to blogger friends,

From reading to sharing,

From solace to comfort,

From silence to spreading the thought,

You lovely people have stayed with me,

Carried the burden of my unjustifiable words,

Put along with my never-ending emotional tantrums,

And also entertained me with some of my irrational posts,

More so this has all happened without any judgements on my character,

And all the more, you have given me,

A million little things to cherish;

For which I can’t thank anyone of you enough.

All of you, every one of you have always remained,

And will always remain close to my heart.

A big thank you,

And a very Happy friendships day.

For a friend is not one who talks to you everyday, and hangs out with you, who brings you gifts and cuts a cake with you on your birthday, with whom you share all your secrets and with whom you go shopping. He is not someone with whom you just discuss your latest girl crush, or with whom you go out and eat because you are in the mood.

A friend is someone who is simply there for you when you need them, who will sit at home and listen to you while you ramble away all your miseries, again and again. He is someone who will know what’s wrong, with one look, and will not let go until you let go of what you are hiding. He is someone who will laugh at you after knowing, what’s troubling you, but will be with you all the same. A friend is not someone who posts with you 20 different photos on social media, but in the end, forgets that there is a life outside of social media. (I get the irony of posting this on a blog)

Walter Winchell was absolutely right in saying, “A friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.”

Books- My Strength!

For me books are more than just books.

Books are more than words,

They are more than mere pages,

They are more than simple plots and fictional stances..

Books are my weakness and they are my strength,

They are my escape mechanism,

And they are my reality!!

They are ever present, non complaining friends,

They are certainly not my enemies.

And these books are where I find my solace,

From this ever present insanity!

 

 

“Your Eyes Speak, Darling!”

It is often advised not to build a business with a friend or a relative, because one of them will never flourish. And the ever adamant person that I am, I will go and definitely do that.

A few years ago I met this person, who initially was abhorred by me but when I got to know him, I realised I was so wrong, completely wrong. And that’s how our friendship began. I had stopped expecting anything out of any relationship by then and so this began as a general acquaintance for me which inadvertently took to a really good friendship. I still didn’t expect anything out of it. When I say ‘expect’ all I mean is that I didn’t expect him to do anything for me, I didn’t expect him to really bother for me or I had no intention in worrying him. I am short of words here.. do you get it? What I am trying to say.

Anyways, so we became good friends and really good friends for that matter where there is no scope of any kind of romantic relationship from both the sides (thankfully). And then after a while we started working together.

I got to know him even better.

Since this is a work-friend relationship we make sure we decide primarily when we are talking as friends, and when as co-workers. But of course many a times we divert ways and so far it has never been ugly.

Today, I met this person after a few days and we were discussing work over a cup of coffee. We were almost done, when I caught him staring at me, more so like glaring at me. My mind went blank, why was he not focused at what I was saying. And I had to snap at him to bring him out of his reverie.

We simply discussed work and as soon as we got finished with it, he blurted out, “Why don’t you go out somewhere? You are truly disturbed and in an objectionable amount of pain.”

I was flummoxed. I almost stammered which is really unlike me and then decided to keep shut, pretending to drink my coffee.

“You go on a leave; you are stressed and really burdened with work, a break would help you.”

We weren’t even discussing anything personal. We were discussing work for God’s sake. How would he know anything about my life right now? I gulped another sip of coffee and stared blankly at him.

“You deserve it,” With that I knew he wouldn’t say anything further.

I knew I had to say something, I couldn’t let him waver. He is my friend too and I owed him an answer. But what?

My hands are wrapped in a fist, and he smiles. Fuck! He does know me well.

I let go of my hands and say “But how would you know any of that?” trying to sound confident and challenging.

Who was I kidding?

“Your eyes speak, darling.”

And just that way, my eyes grew bigger and I gulped down air as fast as I could. He knows me from my eyes? How? Really? Is that possible?

He didn’t ask me anything further; he knew I would never say. I never do. I just shut myself down from emotions. And he left me with that thought.

We finished our coffee, and I diverted him with my tactics, I bombarded him with my questions about him, and made it all about him and I won! We were soon into his problems and how he was dealing with them. We left soon.

He dropped me home as a friend, reminding me to make some work calls as a co-worker. But my mind kept wondering. I didn’t ‘expect’ anything from him. And yet he proved to be really a good friend. Well, more than a good friend.

You just don’t lose these kind of people, whoever they are, and whatever kind of relationship you have with them, you just don’t. They are too special to lose.

 

When Your Friend gets Engaged!

Wasn’t it just yesterday when we used to fight with each other for really nothing?

When we used to fuss over the group projects, and who would do it entirely, while everyone of us would just take the credit?

When we used to fight for notes?

When we wanted to duck behind last benches and avoid eye contact with teachers?

When we used to make plans, and unending plans of hanging out at each other’s places.

When we used to tease each other by saying who’d get married first?

When we would go to extremes to just make an ‘April fool’ of somebody.

When, we’d just finish our tiffin boxes way before the recess?

When we’d smile cunningly when someone’s crush passed by?

When we’d go to the same coaching only to be together and just kill more time?

 

Wasn’t it just yesterday, when we’d roam about the whole day, and open our books the night before the exams, and yet manage to pass?

When we’d get together right 15 minutes before the exam bell, and yet manage to explain the entire syllabus to each other?

wasn’t it just yesterday, when we were kids (Okay, at least teens) and had no trouble what so ever.

Where and how did we grow up?

 

Going to a distant relatives wedding, or your elder sister’s wedding is way different than going to your own friend’s engagement party, the one friend whom you know since childhood, with whom you grew up. Where did the  years go by?

I really can’t believe one of us is getting married, who knows who would be there next, on the stage, smiling and accepting wishes from others.

I must say, as much as I am happy for this dear friend, I am scared  too.

 

A year older! A year wiser?

Yesterday, I turned a year older, or to say a year wiser?

Any which ways this specific day has always been overwhelming to me, not only in positive circumstances but otherwise too.

This day, I realise sometimes my importance in other’s life. I know how much they mean to me and I make it clear too, in some way or the other but I get to know my significance on this day. (There are a lot of other reasons other than wishing me for my birthday)

It’s not about wishing me a “happy birthday”, it is after all just my birthday. But it is about just remembering me. There were many people who did forget me, and did make me a little uncomfortable, made me wonder as to why was I losing people year after year.

I just realised yesterday that I always say that I am searching myself, but in that quest I am also losing people. That is the price I am paying.

Anyways, this post isn’t about them, it is about those lovely souls who made my day “magical”. 😉

And I could not believe my eyes when those warm wishes touched my heart. Yes, my friends and family did wish me, but there was an unexpected turn when wishes from the virtual world came pouring in.

First off, dear Elizabeth, thanks a lot for your warm wishes here, the messages and the tweets, it did mean a lot to me. You basically wished me at every possible virtual place, not to forget your virtual hug and that LOUD singing of the birthday song. Your voice isn’t that bad, you know.

Then there were unexpected tweets from fellow bloggers kalyan and shivam. Thank you both of you for those lovely wishes.

Had it been a year before now, I wouldn’t have believed that I’d have virtual friends, that too such lovely people.

Apart from this, you know what I loved? Bhavna, a special friend of mine, she made me feel so special, I just love her a lot. And yes, one more thing, Mr. Yadu, he wrote me such a wonderful poem, I couldn’t believe my eyes, staring at that message. Thanks a ton for that too! I mean, a poem? For me? Oh my god!!

There were a lot of things that I could go on thanking for, but I don’t want to make it a thank you note. So I’ll stop here.

But I need to say one more thing, the thing that has made me even happier, the best thing that happened to me last week apart from the poem of course! So all week long, I kept getting packets from a courier company; and you know what it revealed? What it had hidden beneath?

Books! Novels!

What could just make it any better? It counted to a total of 16 books!!!!! The last package delivered to me yesterday, containing 7 books.

And I am just so happy now, what other gift could have been better for me?

So may be a little wiser after all.

That dream

I am a dreamer, not only a day dreamer but I dream almost every other day in my sleep, sometimes it makes sense but the other times it is almost a chain of events which are not bound to happen or even more the chances of happening any of it or all of it together is negligible.

So what I saw recently?

I was in a bus journey with a couple of my friends; we are stacking our luggage and getting ready for the trip. We were all excited and yet I seemed lost, as always. I don’t know what, but something bothered me and kept me from being the chirpy me.

But just in a blink of an eye I was at a house, I know not where. I tried to figure out the house but I can remember nothing of it or no resemblance strikes me. I was standing at the end of it, in the last room when suddenly I realise the whole house is swathed in fire and I am screaming mad at the flames. But that is all I am doing, I am just standing there and screaming and trying in the least to save myself. Just when I realise that I am doing nothing I try to run through a slight space from the back door. (Sure the replication of our movies where most of the times that help)

And here, well just as I pass through the door, I am in the bus journey again with a different set of friends’ altogether. Now how did that happen? I sure did not see that coming.

But then one of my friend is saying that he will first drop me home and then leave, a lot has happened and I should take care of myself. Now why that? Why this dream? And why fire? Why should someone drop me? And how can I survive the damn fire? And how can all this be interlinked? I mean just how and why?

PS: I woke up with this dream in my mind and continued thinking about it all day long. I can not refer to any of it as a resemblance to my life, apart from my friends. Well if anything I’d like to know where exactly my trip was headed to? (If nothing I would have liked roaming about some hill stations or a beach.

Book suggestions?

Well, I am not doing good these days. I mean nothing wrong just those days when you feel everything is wrong despite them being just not in your favour. I know it’s Christmas and new year’s time but I have decided to stay indoors and cuddle into my bed with lots of goods books and my fellow friends here got to help me with that.

I will not mention what I like but I can safely say horror is not my cup of tea so any suggestions from you will be really helpful.

PS: Thanks in advance.