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A year passed by!

How hard is blogging according to you?

Of course I’d expect various answers; one among them would most certainly be that it is extremely time consuming. I agree to it. I wouldn’t lie and most of the times there isn’t enough time really. And that is the first and foremost reason that I failed at blogging!

Yeah, if you consider this site as ‘not failed’ then I would like to tell you that this is not my only try at being in the blogging community. I started my very first blog when I was in my first year of college, absolutely the wrong time for me. I scribbled there for a whole year, where basically no one read what I wrote, apart from a couple of friends who knew me already. Eventually, it became a personal diary for me when I hid my site from public, making it a private site. And now it’s no longer there. I completely deleted it. So that was my first fail!

Then came this site, yes, you heard it right! I opened this site last year, somewhere around March or April; I did a few posts, and tried a little something about being heard. Post two months, I deleted this site too but I kept the domain, and never really removed the entire account. So that was my second fail.

I was really worried at the fail. I mean I don’t like failure, honestly who does? I have tried a lot of things and except for mathematics and Accounts I have never been a failure, and that’s when it struck me that I really couldn’t deal with it.

So that’s how I started this blog which I am writing on today, last August. Today I complete a whole year of blogging. I don’t know about failing or not, I think I certainly didn’t let this one go. As of now I  have 230 posts and more than 22000 views, 11000 visitors and a set of followers who really appreciate my work and motivate me.  I don’t know, you tell me how have I been doing? I do not believe in numbers and yet here I am putting forward the numbers. Why? Because I have been trained to do so, we need marks everywhere to pass exams, we need a certain cut off to enter a competitive exams. Intelligence isn’t important, marks and numbers are. But please don’t judge me by the marks. Tell me honestly.

Since the last year that I wrote “I am still finding myself”, there have been some changes.  I wouldn’t say that the questions have disappeared altogether but I have some answers now. But I am yet to find the rest.

Also, just so I don’t lose hope, and don’t start fading away just when I realised that I am here since a year, I put myself in a zone. I tried it last month too, but I couldn’t complete it due to network issues in my area (no excuses), so now may be August is my month. I tried to scribble something every single day, not to increase my stats, not for the number of posts, not for anything else, just for myself. Might as well help me in some way. I don’t know what I was trying to prove to myself, but I did it is a challenge and so far I have not missed a day this month.

And yes, thank you to all you lovely people for joining me in the journey, without you all, every single one of you; this wouldn’t even be a journey.