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सूरज से गुफ्तगू #13

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कभी कभी जब अकेले रोती हूँ
तो रातो को भी तेरा इंतज़ार करती हूँ
कभी कभी, जब अकेले में सोती हूँ
तो खुद की उंगलियों से यु सिलवटे तेरी बना जाती हूँ
तेरे बाहों में सिमटना चाहती हूँ
कुछ देर ही सही, तुजसे दिल का हर राज़ कहना चाहती हूँ.
तू समझता नहीं मेरी प्यास को
तू बस जलना जनता है
तू कभी आता नहीं बेवजह बेवक़्त रात को
तू सिर्फ जलाना जो जनता है.

कुछ और गुफ्तगू: सूरज से गुफ्तगू #12

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सूरज से गुफ्तगू #12

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तू ढूंढ रहा है कुछ
ऐसा सुना है मैंने
तू खो चूका है कुछ
ऐसा पता लगा है मुझे.
अधूरा अधूरा सा लग रहा होगा न
जैसे मुझे अब तक लगता था
आज तक तूने कहा था
चल आज मै तुजसे वही बात कहती हूँ
नहीं पायेगा मुझे
जब तक मिश्री सा घुल नहीं जाता तू मुजमे
नहीं खोज पायेगा मुझे
जब तक नहीं खो जाता तू, मुजमे.

कुछ और गुफ्तगू: सूरज से गुफ्तगू #11

सूरज से गुफ्तगू #10

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दिल तो मशवरे नहीं करता मुझसे
क्या तू भी अब नहीं करेगा
गम रास आने लगा था मुझे
क्या तू भी अब ग़मज़ादा हो जायेगा?

कुछ और गुफ्तगू: सूरज से गुफ्तगू #9

सूरज से गुफ्तगू #9

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सुनो थोड़ा ठहर जाओ
तुमसे एक बात केहनी थी, वो बस सुनते जाओ
दिल आज फिर भर आया है
मै, रात तुम्हारे आने के इंतज़ार में काट लुंगी
तुम बस शाम सहारा बनते जाओ,
सुनो, बस थोड़ा ठहर जाओ.

 

कुछ और गुफ्तगू: सूरज से गुफ्तगू#8

सूरज से गुफ्तगू #7

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क्या यार तुम आज फिर चुप गये
देखो ये रोज रोज का रूठना मनाना नहीं चलेगा
तुम्हारा रोज यु हमसे दूर जाना नहीं चलेगा.
हमने तो कभी कहा नहीं की हमे बारसात पसंद है
हमे तो तुम्हारी वो दूर से भेजी रंगीन आहट ही पसंद है
हमने कब कहा की हमे वो पेड़ से टूट ते पत्ते पसंद है
हमे तो वो ढलती शाम के बेहतरीन बादल ही पसंद है
हमने कब कहा की हमें वो कीचड़ में छप-छपाये पैरों के निशाँ पसंद है
हमे तो तुम्हे देख कर शर्म से लाल होना ही पसंद है.

 

थोड़ी और गुफ्तगू: सूरज से गुफ्तगू #6

 

Illusion or Authenticity!

I dreamt

I dreamt of beautiful things

I dreamt with open eyes.

All my life I was taught

To dream big

Fly high

And so with open eyes

I dreamt of open skies.

Of peace, calm

And of little love.

I have dreamt of inane faith

And believed

That everything will find its way.
Oh- I pictured everything

Of what I wanted

Of dreams that kept me haunted.

What and how and why and when

I thought of everything

That will in reality

Happen again.

The smiles

Engraved

The twinkling eyes

Unscathed

Like a novice, I was in my imagination,

Engaged!

I dreamt of everything

Didn’t leave anything.

Every tiny detail

From today, tomorrow,

And yesterday.

Oh- I sinned.

Oh- I dreamt big.

Dreams don’t come true

Now reality will

Teasingly bite on you.

But wait-

It all came true.

It all did.

What and how and why and when

Every magical kiss again

Everything the way

My open eyes had engraved.

No detail left

And love no more bereft.

Only, there was a little alteration

Everything happened

The way it was meant to be.

The way my heart wanted to see.

But for that one little thing

A tiny little fling.

The dream did come true

Just the way I had thought through

Only-

Only when it came to reality

The dream was not meant for me.

The what

The how

The why

The when

All became a living reality

Only not for me.

Someone else came in a swift

And lived my dream

Instead of me.

Was it not

My dream?

It all happened

Just the way I wanted

But I did not live it.

Jealousy and anger- My sin

I am only human after all.

For years I pined for those wings

And just as I was about

To touch them

Someone came and plucked them away.

My dream

Shattering into million little pieces

Tears brewing in my hollow eyes

But I can’t move.

The dream is all I had

Towards which I slogged

And with that gone

I am nothing but a meek fawn.

I am only a human after all

Succumbing to a painful fall

Lost in an empty desert

Where, in darkness

I howl, “It hurt.”

11:11 Dilemma Prevails!

A few days ago I was incessantly ranting about 11:11, what it is, whether to believe in it or not and so on. But now I have many other reasons to worry. A while ago, only 11:11 bothered me with its repeated appearing but now there are a whole set of numbers bothering me.

 

As a matter of fact I still don’t know if I should believe in the 11:11 thing or not, for nothing predominant has happened so far, or should I say nothing predominant in a good way has happened so far, but now I have another question. What do these numbers mean? So, if 11:11 means something then do 10:28 mean anything? Or 00:00 hold any significance in the numerology department? Wait there are more numbers haunting me- 08:08, 09:05, 10:28, 12:25, 13:13, 15:18, 17:18, 18:18, 19:19, 20:28, 21:28, 22:22, 23:28.

 

Now, don’t ask me how do I remember these weird series. I just do because they have literally started haunting me. Every time I pick up my phone one or the other above mentioned numbers are staring right at me. I know its paranoia now, a random obsession over numbers. But four set of numbers are disturbingly haunting. Not, that I so far have reasons to believe that something good is going to happen, but now I really need to take charge of something worse happening. For, when it comes to ill omens I think I should start believing in them.  Good signs don’t work on me, I juts have that luck, but omens do!

 

So right, what the hell is wrong with 11:11, 00:00, 19:19, and 18:18!!

 

I am pretty sure that I have a disturbingly accurate schedule that makes me look at my phone at the precise time every day, or that I just happen to check for time at such timings that I stumble upon these numbers. But anyways, just had to get it out! See you at 11:11

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Toodles….

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