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I Wanted To Heal You….!!

Yesterday, I posted this, and I felt exactly the words deep in my life, something that came out from inside my heart, but somehow I was not satisfied with the end. I hated my own poetry, my own work, my own thoughts, leaving my readers and myself without hope, and hence I came up with a little different conclusion today.

 

Do let me know which one of the endings did you like more?

 

I wanted; wanted

To take away all our pain,

To free you from your aches,

To envelope you in my embrace,

To make you forget all that can’t be erased.

 

I wanted; wanted

To kiss all your tears,

To chase away all your fears,

To taste all your wounds,

To chaperone you to the tombs.

 

I wanted; wanted

To cure you of your grief,

To surcease all your strife,

To heal your body, your soul,

To be your cure, an antidote.

 

I wanted; wanted

To give you all my happiness,

To bestow you only with blissfulness,

To free you of the enchains,

To liberate you, of all the restrains.

 

And in doing so,

I lost my exulted ecstasy,

My humorous joviality,

My peace, my calm,

My tranquility, the only charm.

 

And in doing so,

I reached someplace called inferno,

Burning, writhing, for how long I don’t know.

In healing you, I lost myself,

My body, my soul,

And there was left, no antidote.

 

 

But then someday, one day,

I rose to that Elysium,

Finessing away all your delirium,

Proliferating my poise,

Vanquishing the void,

Conquering the little forgotten calm,

Regaining all the lost charm.

And I liberated from your chains, with time,

The long lost, yet my lustrous smile.

 

 

 

 

Waking Up With A Smile.

I woke up with a smile today!! Yeah, I was as surprised. Just before I was coming back to consciousness, bidding good bye to my unconscious or absolute unconscious, there was a light shy smile on my face. Yes, I could feel it all, almost know why I was smiling too. But just then I woke up and realized that I was smiling. How was it possibly even true? I barely smile awake, I mean to say, I laugh, a lot, but smiling is different to me and there I was smiling pretty smiles in my dreams, in my sleep. And just then fear gripped me for smiling and I stopped immediately and came back to reality. I woke up.

 

But it would be good if I could remember exactly why I was smiling about, what was so good, even if in my dreams that made me smile. Why couldn’t I have it in reality? What was it in my dreams? Why was it in my dreams? What was so fulfilling? Why did I forget it? I sure remember all the nightmares, so accurately, so precisely then why couldn’t I remember the one dream that I want to remember!!

An ode to him

I am an emotional wreck; I can never speak for them and have never known how to deal with them. My mouth and my heart and mind never are on the same page so when it comes to deal with them I shut myself in. And since there is no market for my emotions but I have literally wanted to sell them he has always been the special buyer. He has always been the special one in my good and the bad, in heaven and in hell.

There were times when I would ramble on and on and he would listen to them all. Sometimes I would literally crush him in my arms and he’d bear that with a pleasant smile, and some other times he would ignore even my ignorance towards him. I would sleep against him, on him, with him and why not, he has always known how to deal with me. He knew when I needed him and when I needed some space, he was the only one who wouldn’t complain.

He is the special one for me and will always be, my lovely Noir,

And he is certainly not my boyfriend, as a matter of fact he isn’t even a human being :-p

 

The act of kindness

I was travelling and it had been a long journey, with a sleepless night and a delayed train. Impatiently waiting for my station I noticed the people sitting across me and couldn’t help but give them a big smile.

There were two kids approximately 5 years old accompanied by their father. Honestly, they were the two cutest kids I’d ever seen, with chubby cheeks, turban tied hair and the amazing smile. They were busy in their own world fighting for the small car, their dad’s mobile phone and nothing in particular. One of them picked up the last cookie from the packet and took a bite when their dad said to him, “You didn’t give it your brother? How can you eat it alone?”

What the boy did next kept me smiling. He halved the cookie and gave it to his brother with no regret on his face. His smile was in fact wider when he added, “If you want you can have the whole cookie. And sorry that I did not asked you before eating it.”

Their father could have bought them a whole new packet, it was sure no big deal but it was the act of kindness that mattered, the teaching of sharing, the act of love involved that mattered.

What we teach our kids is really important these days and he sure is a great dad, and I am pretty sure that these kids will prove to be few of the best people of the next generation. I couldn’t believe 5 years old kids behaving with such maturity while sometimes even older people like us tend to forget our protocols.

They sure made my morning beautiful.

Marry someone who could be..

Marriage? Just how big a decision it is? Enormous, right? Who to marry? When to marry? Is the person right for you? And many more unanswered questions pop into one’s head when thinking about this earth-shaking resolution.

So me and my friend we were sitting in the food court of a mall, sipping coffee and discussing over this very subject. Well, even we could not conclude to any answer and ended up saying it is contingent to every individual. But he said something very deep, something that kept me smiling the entire day.

“You love reading books so marry someone who can be your book, whose pages are unending, whose words mean always something new to you. The book that imparts wisdom, makes you laugh, makes you cry, tells you the truth but also lies to you to make you smile, whose words make you wonder again and again, who is a puzzle, a mystery you love to solve, a book that has all the answers to your questions. A book that you want to read again and again. A book that may not be a bestseller but would surely be you’re ‘the only classic’. A book which after every read, you close it and stare at the cover smiling and you wish that it would happen all over again. So marry someone who could be your book.”

PS: The idea belongs to my friend’s philosophical mind but I took the liberty to exaggerate it.

So what are your thoughts on it? Do you agree? Would you have it any other way? Would you marry someone like this?

I smile

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“Why are you smiling?” people have often asked me this to which I mostly do not have an answer. Well, call me crazy but it happens with me and I do not even feel anything weird about it. I mean what’s the harm in smiling?

There isn’t. Rather it is an exercise which reduces all your stress. It may be difficult to smile at difficult times and you might not even feel like giving yourself a good big smile but just try it once. It feels wonderful. We all have those bad days when we cry, we fight, we are moody, and we do not want to talk to anyone, when things are just not our way, when the world seems to go just against you, when everything conspires against you but just this one smile, please?

I smile every day, even on such rough days; especially on such rough days. I stand in front of my mirror, stare at myself and then give myself the most sweetest and the biggest smile that I can and just there I feel wonderful. As every problem has its own solution I am my own resolution. Cause no one can do anything for you unless you want to do it for yourself.

I stand there and tell myself that I am beautiful, I have the most wonderful smile, I am strong, invincible and I am capable of doing anything on my own and if not something better will come my way. I just have to trust myself and my destiny.

And so I smile

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Well not always does one feel so optimistic, does he? 😉

 

Daily Prompt: Treasure

via Daily Prompt: Treasure

You are my heart and soul and you still don’t know that

And perhaps you will never know.

You are the smile on my face, the tears in my eyes

You are my unending appetite.

 

You are the smell after the rain

The sunshine in the summers,

The snowfall in the winters.

 

You are the silver, gold and diamonds in my jewellery collection,

You are the memories engraved on my mind.

You are the treasure,

I will cherish my entire life.