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The Sea

Poetry has been a consistent part of my life, first reading and then writing. Though if someone would have said that I could try writing poems, a year back, I would have rolled my eyes and said, “Yeah, right!” Not that I have become very confident of my pieces, but I have come as far as trying to share them and be judged.

So, judge away a small poem that has been accepted for publication by Indian Periodical:

The Sea

Do share with me what you think about this. It is always amazing to hear from you, and helpful to hear an honest opinion.

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Illusion or Authenticity!

I dreamt

I dreamt of beautiful things

I dreamt with open eyes.

All my life I was taught

To dream big

Fly high

And so with open eyes

I dreamt of open skies.

Of peace, calm

And of little love.

I have dreamt of inane faith

And believed

That everything will find its way.
Oh- I pictured everything

Of what I wanted

Of dreams that kept me haunted.

What and how and why and when

I thought of everything

That will in reality

Happen again.

The smiles

Engraved

The twinkling eyes

Unscathed

Like a novice, I was in my imagination,

Engaged!

I dreamt of everything

Didn’t leave anything.

Every tiny detail

From today, tomorrow,

And yesterday.

Oh- I sinned.

Oh- I dreamt big.

Dreams don’t come true

Now reality will

Teasingly bite on you.

But wait-

It all came true.

It all did.

What and how and why and when

Every magical kiss again

Everything the way

My open eyes had engraved.

No detail left

And love no more bereft.

Only, there was a little alteration

Everything happened

The way it was meant to be.

The way my heart wanted to see.

But for that one little thing

A tiny little fling.

The dream did come true

Just the way I had thought through

Only-

Only when it came to reality

The dream was not meant for me.

The what

The how

The why

The when

All became a living reality

Only not for me.

Someone else came in a swift

And lived my dream

Instead of me.

Was it not

My dream?

It all happened

Just the way I wanted

But I did not live it.

Jealousy and anger- My sin

I am only human after all.

For years I pined for those wings

And just as I was about

To touch them

Someone came and plucked them away.

My dream

Shattering into million little pieces

Tears brewing in my hollow eyes

But I can’t move.

The dream is all I had

Towards which I slogged

And with that gone

I am nothing but a meek fawn.

I am only a human after all

Succumbing to a painful fall

Lost in an empty desert

Where, in darkness

I howl, “It hurt.”

सूरज से गुफ्तगू #6

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चलो जाओ, नहीं करनी तुमसे कोई मुलाकात
तुम नहीं चाहते तो नहीं करनी तुमसे कोई बात
दूर-दूर ही अच्छे हो
चाँद क बिना ही पुरे हो.
शायद इसी बात का गुर्रर है
चांदनी से पहले जो तुमसे मोहब्बत का इकरार किया है.
हमने तो कोई पर्दा न रखा था
पर तुम्हारे सुरूर का ताप ही गहरा था.
चल आज से सब बदल जायेगा
तेरी जगह चाँद का नाम लिया जायेगा
आज से रात को ही सपने  देखेंगे
सौंदर्य की जगह चांदनी को दे देंगे
बोल अगर है तुजे मंजूर
या फिर है तुजे मेरी ही मोहब्बत कबूल?

PS: However cliche this may sound anyone saying Kabool, kabool, kabool will not be entertained.

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थोड़ी और गुफ्तगू : सूरज से गुफ्तगू #5

Couple Goals!

People around me often admonish me for cringing and cribbing at those who are always into “couple goals.” I refer to those people who always have to wear matching dresses, ALWAYS, always have to do every single thing together, those who are constantly updating and publicizing their personal life on social media, I mean you don’t have to tell everyone about your 4 month and 29 days togetherness! Okay, even if you want to and even if you do, I am no one to judge you, but still you might want to leave those who don’t care about this. I don’t really mind what these people do, but sometimes, I get a lot irritated, and my friends do give me a long talk on that! May be I am completely wrong to judge these people, I think I am. I mean who am I to judge someone who feels completely liberated even when being with the same person 24*7, it might be too much for me, but not for others.

Okay now, I am digressing! You get the point, about whom I am talking. And you also get that I am frowned upon when I cringe and make faces at these too sweet couples.

But my point is, I have been noticing some of these couples and I have a very weird realization. Recently I had a feeling about a couple that I know, that they seem to look alike, so alike that for a second you’d believe them to be siblings.

What next? I did meet two people recently whom I thought to be brother and sister. But in actuality, they were a couple. It’s only good that I did not mouth my thoughts louder. But the similarities were striking!

And from there started a variety of thoughts and observations. And the more I observed the more I realized that some couples did look a lot alike! Not all, definitely not all, but some couples that I know, who have been together for a long period of time, did look so alike. It was a little bizarre to me. I mean matching dresses, similar phones, and similar profile photos weren’t enough or what? That you’d had to go and look spitting images of each other too? Okay I know this went a little too far. I am just kidding. This looking alike thing was kind of cute may be? Uuuuummmm. But as I said who am I to judge? 😉

But is it only me, or any of you think so too? Do you guys notice such couples, or is it just my mind cooking?

PS: My couple goal is simple. I want to be crazy, just as crazy as I am, but this time, it’s with him!

The Two Ends Of My Life!

Drinking that warm cup of coffee opening your morning newspaper, and reading the exact situation of your life in the paper. Yes, this was all my day was about today.

A very interesting column by Bikram Vohra titled “To sum up life” caught my eye and it was aptly hilarious for me. Not that the situation is. But the fact that my life is in such tatters and that this writer has accurately put pen to paper, was a little it amusing to me.

He pleads his left end of the life to meet the right end. He wonders, despite all the problems in the current scenario, why is everybody else doing so good in life, while his own life is only laughable. By the end he almost concludes saying that these two ends needn’t even meet. He’d be happy if only, the two separate ends would oblige him by accepting to be on the same book, by simply accepting that they live in the same planet.

The situation may not be true for him, but it sure is for me. For him, it might just be a column, but I’d safely say that it is my truth for now. While everyone else is doing good, or at least doing something, I feel I am stationed at a harbor for eternity, without a boat, without knowing how to swim, without a destination if I’d want to walk somewhere to. The only possibility is I keep walking without a feeling of satisfaction of having done something.

Yeah, yeah, you will say I will reach somewhere, have patience. Everyone reaches someplace sooner or later. Everyone takes their own time. I will reach someplace too. Yeah yeah yeah… but till then I can’t help feel this way. People rubbing their noses on me, making me realize how insignificant I am, how much good they are up to.

I am not comparing myself to others. All I ever want to is to be a better version of myself with every passing day, but sometimes I just lose it all and then feel like both ends of my life have kept me somewhere and have forgotten that they belong to me. These forgetful ends seem to have disowned me and have decided to never be in accord with me.

So, the two ends, please, will you please try and remember where I am, because I have tired myself searching for you, and you in return seem to enjoy this game of hide and seek. Please, will you please, if not meet each other or me, at the least agree to be in the same book, accept that we all live in the same planet?

 

 

I Cannot Breathe.

 

Open the door

Open the windows.

Let the thinnest air in,

For I cannot breathe in.

 

Let me feel the breeze

Let me cherish the wind.

Allow me to swallow the air,

For I cannot breathe in.

 

Unclasp your fingers from

Around my neck.

Loosen your hold

From around my hips,

For I cannot breathe in.

 

It is raining outside.

The clouds passing by

The lightening that just went by.

I can see the shower

Trickling down the trees.

The mud dancing down the roads.

The strong winds

Blowing away the leaves.

And yet, I cannot breathe in.

This or That Tag.

Recently I seem to have been participating in all the quote challenges and the tags, which is absolutely unlike me. But here I am participating in another tag namely, “This or That Tag” in which I was nominated by Richa at http://iscriblr.com

As always I will dump the rules and simply answer all all the questions that I have been asked.

  • Dog or Cat?
    I know my first answer will send away many of you from reading any further, because it is none.
  • Netflix or YouTube?
    YouTube
  • Phone Call or Text?
    Phone calls, it shows that an effort is being made.
  • Toast or Eggs?
    Toast.
  • Cardio or Weights?
    None!!!
  • Facebook or Twitter?
    I can literally sit online for a long time and just watch videos from pages that I have followed on Facebook. But Twitter seems helpful for my blog.
  • Ice Cream Cone or Snow Cone?
    Ice Cream
  • Mobile Games or Console Games?
    None.
  • While walking : Music or Podcasts?
    Music, but I like to think too.
  • iOS or Android?
    iOS
  • Cake or Pie?
    CAKE
  • Swimming or Sunbathing?
    Swimming, though all I do is play on the water because I don’t know how to swim.
  • Big Party or Small Gathering?
    Small gathering, any day.
  • New Clothes or New Phone?
    New Clothes, but if I have an option then new books too would do.
  • Rich Friend or Loyal Friend?
    Is anyone really loyal these days?
  • Football or Basketball?
    Not a sports fan actually.
  • Nice Car or Nice Home Interior?
    Nice home interior. I could really do with a comfortable home and a library in it 😀
  • What’s worse : Laundry or Dishes?
    Anything that I have to do that does not relate my interest is worse, including dishes and laundry.
  • Jogging or Hiking?
    Hiking
  • Bath or Shower?
    If only I could have that much time to spend in a bath!
  • Sneakers, or sandals?
    Ummm, Okay I will digress, I say boots. I just love them.
  • Glasses or Contacts?
    I don’t wear either. But I’d love to see how I look in blue eyes.
  • Hamburger or Taco?
    Tacos
  • Couch or Recliner?
    As long as I am comfortable, it doesn’t matter.
  • Online Shopping or Shopping in a Store?
    Online Shopping, anything to avoid humans.
  • Receive : Email or Letter?
    I used to write letters when I was a kid, but now emails are a better option, only because it is faster. But come to think of it, no one even writes email these days, a small message and it’s done.
  • Passenger or Driver?
    Passenger if the driver isn’t talking to me and letting me enjoy the view, or else I’d rather be the driver.
  • Tablet or Computer?
    Computer.
  • Most important in a partner : Intelligent or Funny?
    ummm, It doesn’t matter if he is intelligent, or funny, or smart or rich, what I’d rather have is that he respects me for who I am.
  • Car or Truck?
    Car
  • Blue or Red?
    Blue
  • Money or Free Time?
    I’d have money and then appoint people to do things for me, that way I can have a bit of free time too.
  • Amusement Park or Day at the Beach?
    Day at the Beach, reading soothing, bathing, and having all sorts of fun.
  • At a movie : Candy or Popcorn?
    Popcorn.
  • Pen or Pencil?
    Pen.
  • Cups in the cupboard : Right Side Up or Up Side Down?
    Up Side Down.
  • Pancake or Waffle?
    Waffle, my latest addiction.
  • Coke or Pepsi?
    Coke
  • Coffee Cup or Thermos?
    Coffee Cups
  • Blinds or Curtain?
    Blinds.
  • Train or Plane?
    Plane, just because it saves me time and Well, Indian railways aren’t very well known for punctuality.
  • Phone or Tablet?
    As mentioned above, if I am choosing a computer over tablet, then I’ll chose a phone here, I don’t need a tablet too!
  • Iced Coffee or Hot Coffee?
    Oh come on, it is coffee, hot ? cold? I am up for it.
  • Meat or Vegetables?
    Vegetables
  • International Vacation or a New TV?
    How can someone ask such a question (Over dramatic) International Vacation!!!!!
  • Save or Spend?
    invest some, spend some.
  • Honesty or Other’s Feelings?
    Honesty, I always wonder if ever that was in trend.
  • Coffee or Tea?
    Coffee.
  • TV or Book?
    Book, any day.
  • Movie at Home or Movie at the Theater?
    Movie at the theatre. I don’t go out much so it is just a chance.
  • Ocean or Mountains?
    Nature lover, anything would do.
  • Horror Movie or Comedy Movie?
    You lost me at H for horror.
  • City or Countryside?
    City.
  • Winter or Summer?
    I like to enjoy every season in parts.
  • Mac or PC?
    Mac
  • Console Gaming or PC Gaming?
    None.
  • Soup or Sandwich?
    Sandwich
  • Card Game or Board Game?
    Again not much into games.
  • Camping or Binge Watching Shows at Home?
    Camping.
  • Working Alone or Working in a Team?
    Working alone, but if I have to work in a team, I am up for it, though not very enthusiastically.
  • Dine In or Delivery?
    Delivery, I  am not much of a cook, but yeah if you are cooking them you are most welcome 😀
  • Sweater or Hoodie?
    Whatever goes with the dress.
  • Motorcycle or Bicycle?
    Motorcycle.
  • Book or eBook?
    Book!
  • When sleeping : Fan or No Fan?
    I am a human and I need the air in the extreme summers that we have here. I switch on the AC and the fan!
  • TV Shows or Movies?
    Actually, both.

 

I hope you enjoyed reading this and it wasn’t much waste of your time.

I will not nominate any of you, but if you are reading this and if you like do participate in this, would love to know about you too.

Have a good day.